That day I don’t know what happened to me. Neither I was happy nor sad. Maybe I was irritated. And there is a feeling of unwillingness. I wasn’t sick, still all I wanted is to sleep. But even after then, it remains same. Or felt like you can’t think about anything. Your every effort seems like a failure. Life just stop. It felt like, that you are caged inside. And no matter how much you were trying to push yourself out, you couldn’t. Being trapped in your own thoughts. It’s an endless loop. They never seem to stop. You are tired and still running. In a way you are being pulled ruthlessly. At this point there comes a situation when you have a feeling that give up on things, people is the only solution left. You wanted to be alone. You try to distract yourself or try to keep yourself busy for a while, later you got tired of it too. And Do you know why this is happening to you? Or what it is? Earlier I I believe that I am sad. Life is not going well. Hard times and so other things. But you know the truth is you are not sad. Being sad or happy both are beautiful and they have good impact on you. But there comes a worse situation when you lose your peace of mind. And we compare it with sadness. Cry when you feel sad. Smile when you feel happy. Let out those emotions. But when you lose your peace of mind. It’s nothing and everything. But the good part is that you can manage it. I remember once upon a time I was going to my granny’s home. I ask the shopkeeper for Kurkure, for my cousins. And he gave me a packet entitled with “churchure”. I asked him again, “uncle..! Kurkure!!” He replied very politely (pointing on that packet), “It is kurkure.” I was like wtf! So see maybe even the “churchure” looks alike Kurkure, still there is a huge difference between both. So that’s how there is a difference between being sad or losing your peace of mind.
So the question arises what we can do for this. As I was saying earlier that day I don’t know what happened to me, I took the camera and went outside. And click this beautiful butterfly. It gives me peace and satisfaction. I am not saying that by clicking the photos you will get peace. Do what you love to do. Do that give you internal peace or satisfaction, like talking to someone, drawing, it can be anything. While we lose our peace of mind, even we know the things are right, still we feel hard to accept those. It has a worse effect on people in your surroundings and the people who loves you. And one thing at last your peace of mind is much more worthy than anyone else, don’t lose it on people who doesn’t deserve it.